Not a good day…

UGHHHH…today I woke up feeling so down.

I’m going through so many changes in my life and I don’t know how to deal with it. I’m overwhelmed with emotions and I feel like they are all cooped up inside ready to burst out.

I’m currently Transitioning into a new career path I’ve been a nanny for 9 years and I feel like its the only thing I know how to do! I just got a teachers assistant position in an Early intervention school. Now, I’m super excited about this new job but so nervous and sad at the same time. Like I’ve never had coworkers its weird to explain , I’ve never worked in that atmosphere, I’ve new worked with people by myself I’ve pretty much been my own coworker for 9 years.

When you’re a nanny you basically raise a child and learn to love them and grow with them and create an amazing bond with them. This is truly breaking my heart to leave this amazing family although they have become my family its just going to be a hard adjustment for all of us. I saw these people more then I saw my own family. 60+ hrs a week

I feel like these past to weeks I’m dealing with the same issue separation from people I truly care about. First the soldier leaves and now I have to leave from this family. I seriously don’t know how to deal with all this. Im at such a low place in my life right now and I don’t know how to cope.

Not much support from anyone I feel so alone!!! My family is amazing we just aren’t the sentimental type who console each other. My friends have their own lives and don’t see this as a big deal they are kind of sucking at being friends right now!

I think the fact that the soldier boy hasn’t reached out to me in like a week is affecting me a little too much. I say that it’s no,t but I know that it is. Like is it that hard to call someone and say hey how are ya? You really don’t care like a little bit to know if I’m okay? I don’t fucking understand it…I just don’t!

All these transitions suck ASS!

4 thoughts on “Not a good day…

  1. I would feel terribly alone in your position, too… But maybe try to look at your new job in a more positive way, having co-workers will allow you to meet new people and maybe even make new friends! Just be open to those new experiences ๐Ÿ™‚

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